Hi again!
So since the audience might be different than the group I had years ago I wanted to clarify and make sure we’re all on the same page. I’m going to try and not be as word-y so I apologize in advance and please let me know if I am unclear in any of this.

1. The name. WannaBeNormal. When I started years ago, I used to think that was the dream, to be a NORMAL girl with NORMAL dreams and NORMAL pursuits and relationships. I figured out pretty soon into my journey there really is no such thing as NORMAL. We all process things differently, our body chemistry while similar is not the same, and normal static average is just not a thing, we’re all on a sliding scale, and how boring would life be if we were all exactly the same? We don’t all want the same things either, some things are more important to certain people than others and we need all types of diversity to advance in society such as it is. At that point I thought about coming out with DONTWannaBeNormal, but I don’t really think that either. I just want to be the best version of me I can possibly be and help others to do the same. So if I were to name the site now it would probably be WannaBeBetter, but not in a sense, just a better me than I am, and I’m working on it.

2. I’ve always been upfront since I can be anonymous with you all about my mental health. While my bipolar is not wild and extreme, its still up and down. I was on meds that took away the highs and lows, but I felt like I felt NOTHING, and thats no way to live either. I’ve finally felt a bit more mediums the last few years and the waves are less frequent but no less severe. When I’m low, I can’t see the surface let alone find a way out, when I’m manic, its hands and knees scrubbing the kitchen floor at 8 in the morning. I’d love this mixed episode right now if I didn’t have such a broken body.

3. I’ve had to go off meds for various reasons, some because of how they interacted with the new heart meds I’ve needed, I had to go off pain meds because that was just no way to live and they were contributing to the death of my kidneys. My anti-anxiety had to go because the level of sedation over such a prolonged amount of time was having lasting effects. Not all meds are bad, and I still take plenty, I just started exploring other options because with each added med you get not just the meds interaction with your body chemistry you also add the drug interactions possibility. I had been actively taking something that caused something else, which I then needed meds to counteract! And no one caught it or even thought to tell me it was a possibility. STAY INFORMED AND ASK QUESTIONS! I’ve been using some more natural remedies with mostly positive reactions. Its still all about moderation and tempering and tailoring a method that works for you. While I won’t tell you how to do it, because as I said, my way simply won’t work for others who were not designed like me, I will help you figure out what works best for you. I WANT to help you figure out what works for you and find out a practical way to implement it and maintain it. I can do it in a general sense on my blog and in my videos but if you contact me directly I will help you with your specific goals. Not only would it help you, but helping people makes ME feel better too, so you’re like, almost being rude by not telling me. *pouty face that I am entirely too old to employ*, I won’t stop trying to please the masses but we all know thats impossible so helping a select few would be awesome.

4. There’s so much more I’d love to clear up for people but I have to get it in bite size pieces as do many of you as well I’m sure, too much info at once and it feels like pouring too much water in a glass. Getting too much info makes me not just not get the stuff that you try and tell me after my thoughts have veered off the road, but also the whole beginning will fly out the window just because it knows how to piss me off. My subconscious is a dick guys!