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🐾 7 Reasons My Emotional Support Cat Is the Best Thing to Happen to My Nervous System

  1. He gives actual hugs.
    Not “cat-style affection.” Not a polite leg rub. I mean full-on, arms-around-my-neck, genuine hugs—every. single. day. It is adorable and sometimes the BEST part of my day.

He runs to me like I’m the main character.
I can be in the middle of a meltdown or just opening a can of soda, and here he comes—flying in from another room like, “My human needs me!”

He’s got emotional radar.
Somehow, he knows the difference between “I stubbed my toe” and “life is lifing too hard right now.” That’s when he turns on maximum purr mode.

Therapy sessions are 100% confidential.
He’s heard every rant, every ugly cry, and not once has he told a soul. Best therapist I’ve ever had. Cheap too, works off lovies

    He reminds me that love doesn’t have to be complicated.
    He doesn’t need words, money, or plans—just a lap, a snuggle, and maybe a treat afterward. (Boundaries are important.)

    He’s the king of comfort.
    Heating pads? Overrated. Weighted blankets? Optional. Warm, vibrating cat on your shoulder? Perfect.

    He makes me believe in the healing power of small moments.
    Every time he chooses me—out of the whole house—to snuggle, it feels like the universe reminding me that I’m worth comfort, too. Til next time gang, take care of yourselves, and each other.

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      💊 When Your Body Stages a Coup: Surviving Withdrawal from Your Legally Prescribed Meds

      So picture this: you’re minding your business, taking your meds like a responsible adult, when suddenly—boom.
      Pharmacy delay. Doctor out of town. Prior authorization “pending.” Ah the setback of psych meds.
      And your nervous system? It’s like, “Cool cool cool… let’s panic about everything now.”

      Let’s be clear right out of the gate:
      This isn’t addiction.
      This is what happens when your body gets used to something your doctor prescribed, and then it disappears faster than your motivation on a Monday.

      For people managing chronic pain, ADHD, bipolar disorder, fibromyalgia, anxiety—basically anything that makes life feel like juggling flaming swords—missing meds can wreck your whole week. Sometimes your whole month. It used to be pain meds were controlled, well I got off all them and then I find out one of my meds for my mental state is controlled too.

      So here’s the practical, not-patronizing guide to surviving it.


      🧠 1. Know What’s Happening — It’s Not “Just in Your Head”

      Your body doesn’t care that you’re being responsible. It just knows chemistry changed.
      Withdrawal from meds like antidepressants, or mood stabilizers can cause:

      • Flu-like symptoms (the fever, chills, and “oh God, why” kind)
      • Dizziness or brain zaps
      • Stomach chaos (you know what I mean)
      • Anxiety that feels like being trapped in your own skin
      • Crying at car insurance commercials

      You’re not crazy, dramatic, or weak. You’re literally detoxing from a medication your body depended on.


      🩺 2. Call the Pharmacy and Doctor — Every. Single. Day.

      Yes, it’s annoying. Yes, they hate it. Do it anyway.
      Sometimes the squeaky wheel really does get the refill.

      Ask for:

      • A partial fill (even a few days’ worth helps)
      • Generic or alternative options
      • If your doctor can bridge it with samples or a similar med

      If you can’t get through to your doctor, ask to speak to the nurse or pharmacist directly—they can often light a fire under the process faster than anyone else.


      🧘‍♀️ 3. Temporary Coping Tools (That Actually Help)

      You can’t cure withdrawal, but you can soften the edges.
      Try:

      • Hydration like it’s your job. Electrolytes help your body flush junk out faster.
      • Protein and complex carbs. Blood sugar swings make symptoms worse.
      • Body temp tricks: cool showers for feverish restlessness, warm baths for muscle tension.
      • Magnesium and vitamin B supplements (if cleared by your doc).
      • Ginger tea or mints for nausea.
      • Noise + comfort TV. Distract your brain from itself. (“SVU’ or ‘Chicago’ shows is a favorite here.)

      And yes, sleep whenever you can. Withdrawal can feel like a bad breakup between your brain and your body, and you’ll need rest to survive the drama.


      🚨 4. Know When It’s Too Much

      If your symptoms go beyond “ugh” and start looking like “dangerous,” it’s time to get help.
      Go to urgent care or call your doctor if you experience:

      • Suicidal thoughts
      • Chest pain
      • Severe confusion or disorientation
      • Tremors, seizures, or blood pressure spikes

      No guilt, no hesitation. This isn’t weakness—it’s biology in meltdown mode.


      💬 5. You’re Not a “Druggie.” You’re a Human Being.

      Let’s kill that stigma right now.
      There’s a difference between dependency and addiction—one means your body adapted to a med, the other means there’s misuse or compulsion.

      If you’re following your prescription and life implodes when you miss it, that’s not moral failure. That’s chemistry. And it deserves compassion, not judgment.


      🌿 Bonus: What to Do Once You’re Back on Track

      • Ask about tapering. Even a few days’ gap can make restarting rough.
      • Set up refill reminders. Calendar, app, sticky note, carrier pigeon—whatever works.
      • Request overlap fills (some pharmacies will fill a few days early if you ask).
      • Stock an emergency buffer once you can, even if it’s just a few days’ worth.

      And most importantly: forgive yourself for the mess that isn’t your fault.
      Medication management in modern healthcare is like playing whack-a-mole blindfolded. You’re doing great just by surviving it. Dependency is’nt addiction. Til next time gang, take care of yourselves, and each other!


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      🍗 Two-Week Reserve-Based Crockpot Menu: Chicken, Sausage & Beef Edition (Wk 27&28)

      Because ovens are rude and we deserve ease.

      Let’s be real — chronic illness, neurodivergence, parenting, and general life chaos don’t care that dinner still has to happen.
      So here’s a two-week, reserve-based crockpot plan that keeps you fed without a meltdown.

      You’ll cook just three days a week (Tuesday, Thursday, and Sunday) and still have enough food for reworks, leftovers, and “oops, I forgot to defrost something” days.


      🐔 TUESDAY: Chicken Day

      🥣 Salsa Crockpot Chicken

      The OG lazy girl dinner. Don’t mess with perfection.

      Ingredients

      • 2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken breasts
      • 1 jar (16 oz) salsa
      • 1 packet taco seasoning
      • Optional: 1 cup frozen corn or a can of diced tomatoes (drained)

      Instructions

      1. Dump it all in the crockpot.
      2. Cook on low 6–8 hours or high 3–4.
      3. Shred it up and mix before serving.

      Serve With: Rice, tortillas, or potatoes.
      Reserves: Use leftovers in quesadillas, nachos, rice bowls, or over pasta.


      🍽️ Chicken & Veggie Bowls

      Healthy-ish. Easy. Zero oven time. We love that for us.

      Ingredients

      • 1 ½ lbs chicken (breasts or thighs), chunked
      • 1 bell pepper, sliced
      • 1 zucchini, sliced
      • ½ onion, sliced
      • 2 tbsp olive oil
      • 1 tsp Italian seasoning
      • Salt and pepper

      Instructions

      1. Toss it all in the crockpot.
      2. Cook on low 5–6 hours or high 3–4.
      3. Stir before serving to coat everything evenly.

      Serve With: Rice, quinoa, or in wraps.
      Reserves: Toss leftovers into scrambled eggs or pasta for a second meal.


      🌭 THURSDAY: Sausage Day

      🍝 Sausage & Peppers Pasta

      A classic one-pot wonder — but make it a slow cooker.

      Ingredients

      • 1 lb smoked sausage, sliced
      • 1 onion, diced
      • 1 bell pepper, sliced
      • 2 cloves garlic, minced
      • 1 can (14 oz) diced tomatoes
      • 2 cups broth
      • 8 oz pasta (add later!)
      • Italian herbs, salt & pepper

      Instructions

      1. Add everything except the pasta.
      2. Cook on low 5–6 hours or high 3–4.
      3. Stir in uncooked pasta 30–40 minutes before serving (add a splash of broth if needed).

      Reserves: Bake leftovers with cheese or thin it out for soup.


      🥔 Sausage, Potato & Pepper Hash

      Like a diner breakfast but without having to move.

      Ingredients

      • 1 lb smoked sausage, sliced
      • 1 ½ lbs potatoes, chopped
      • 1 bell pepper, chopped
      • ½ onion, chopped
      • 2 tbsp olive oil or butter
      • Garlic powder, paprika, salt, pepper

      Instructions

      1. Grease crockpot lightly with oil or spray.
      2. Toss everything in and mix well.
      3. Cook on high 3–4 hours or low 6–7, stirring halfway through.

      Serve With: Fried egg on top or a warm roll.
      Reserves: Wrap leftovers in tortillas for breakfast burritos.


      🥩 SUNDAY: Ground Beef Day

      🌶️ Lazy Chili Mac (No Beans)

      It’s comfort food that won’t fight your stomach.

      Ingredients

      • 1 lb cooked ground beef
      • 3 cups beef broth
      • 1 (15 oz) can tomato sauce
      • 2 cups elbow noodles
      • 1 tsp chili powder
      • ½ tsp cumin
      • Salt & pepper

      Instructions

      1. Add everything except noodles to the crockpot.
      2. Cook on low 4–5 hours.
      3. Stir in noodles 30 minutes before serving.

      Reserves: Serve leftovers over baked potatoes or tortilla chips.


      🍚 Beef & Rice Bowls

      Your freezer meal hero.

      Ingredients

      • 1 lb cooked ground beef
      • 1 ½ cups uncooked rice
      • 3 cups broth
      • ½ onion, chopped
      • 1 tsp garlic powder
      • Salt, pepper, paprika

      Instructions

      1. Combine everything in the crockpot.
      2. Cook on low 4–5 hours or high 2–3.
      3. Fluff before serving.

      Reserves: Wrap in lettuce or tortillas, or top with fried eggs.


      That should last us into November, wow it flies by, til next time gang, take care of yourselves, and each other.

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      8 Times My Mental Health Made Me a Genius — and 3 Times It Made Me a Dumpster Fire

      Some days, I swear my brain is a chaotic supercomputer running on caffeine and trauma responses. It’s exhausting. It’s unpredictable. And occasionally, it’s brilliant.

      So let’s give credit where it’s due — because sometimes mental illness hands you a superpower… and sometimes it hands you a Molotov cocktail.


      🧠 The Genius Moments

      1. Hyperfocus: AKA My Accidental Superpower
      When my brain decides something is interesting, I turn into a NASA-level researcher on a Red Bull IV. I can build a business plan, reorganize my entire digital life, and deep-dive through 42 tabs of psychology articles before breakfast. I might forget to eat, but I will emerge knowing the mating habits of penguins if it’s remotely relevant.


      2. Emotional Intelligence on God Mode
      Years of overanalyzing every tone and micro-expression have made me a human lie detector with empathy upgrades. I can walk into a room and feel the vibe like a weather forecaster for emotions. It’s exhausting but occasionally makes me the person everyone calls when they need comfort or brutal honesty — whichever comes first.


      3. Creative Problem Solving: The Chaos Alchemy
      Give me a problem and 15 minutes of unfiltered panic, and I’ll have three off-the-wall solutions that actually work. Spoonies and neurodivergent folks don’t just “think outside the box.” We’ve set the box on fire, repurposed the ashes, and turned it into an Etsy product.


      4. The Art of Masking (AKA Professional Acting)
      Sure, it’s born from survival, but let’s be honest — I’ve basically earned an honorary degree in emotional theater. I can hold it together in public, then immediately turn into a crying burrito when I get home. Oscar-worthy.


      5. Intuition That Borders on Witchcraft
      When you live in constant hypervigilance, your brain notices everything. Energy shifts. Tone changes. The fact that Karen at the store is not okay. Sometimes it’s anxiety, sure — but sometimes it’s eerily accurate intuition. I’m not saying I’m psychic, but…


      6. The Research Rabbit Hole™
      I’ve “accidentally” learned the DSM-5 like it’s bedtime reading. If I love something, I deep dive — no casual interests here. Just full-blown expertise in ADHD coping strategies, trauma theory, and which weighted blanket won’t suffocate me.


      7. Empathy = My Super Serum
      Pain teaches compassion. Chronic illness teaches perspective. Together, they make you someone who can meet others where they are, not where you wish they were. That’s no small thing.


      8. Resilience Built from Pure Stubbornness
      You ever meet someone who survived their own brain on hard mode? Yeah — we don’t quit easily. We rest, cry, reboot, and come back with snacks and spreadsheets.


      🔥 The Dumpster Fire Moments

      1. Overwhelm Level: Existential Crisis
      Sometimes, everything is just too much. The noise, the people, the to-do list — all of it. My brain freezes like an overloaded computer and suddenly, I’m watching TikToks instead of doing basic human tasks like “laundry” or “feeding self.”


      2. The ‘Fun’ Side of Mania or Hyperfixation
      Oh, you wanted balance? Sorry, my brain just ordered $120 of craft supplies for a project I’ll finish never. I’ve also rewritten the same paragraph 14 times because it’s 3 a.m. and I’m possessed by perfectionism.


      3. Memory? Think Again
      There are entire days that vanish like deleted browser history. Did I take my meds? Did I text back? Why is there coffee in the microwave from yesterday? No one knows.


      The Takeaway

      We’re walking contradictions — brilliant and burned out, wise and impulsive, compassionate and chaotic. But you know what? We still show up. Every single day, we rebuild from the ashes our brains set on fire.

      And that? That’s not a flaw. That’s art. Til next time gang, take care of yourselves, and each other!

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      Why Spoonies Are the Best Problem-Solvers (It’s Science)

      Let’s talk about something we never get enough credit for: people with chronic illness are problem-solving ninjas.

      And no, that’s not just me trying to make our daily struggle sound poetic — there’s actual science behind it.

      While healthy folks go about their stable little lives with their cooperative bodies and reliable energy, we’re over here MacGyvering our way through every single day.

      That constant adapting? It’s not just survival — it’s skill-building. Real, measurable, brain-changing skill-building.


      🧠 The Science-y Bit

      Research shows that adversity can actually boost creativity — making people more original, flexible, and engaged problem-solvers.

      In plain English: hard stuff makes your brain weirdly good at solving other hard stuff.

      So when you live with chronic illness, you’re basically getting a crash course in creative adaptation 24/7.

      We’re not just surviving. We’re literally rewiring our brains to find new ways to function every single day.


      💡 Spoonie Skill Set: Why We’d Crush Any Escape Room

      1. Creative Constraint Management

      Limited energy? Unpredictable symptoms? Welcome to our daily innovation lab.
      Chronic illness is a masterclass in working under ridiculous constraints — and somehow making it work anyway.

      2. Advanced Risk Assessment

      Every activity is a cost-benefit analysis:
      Shower or make dinner? Push through or rest now and avoid a three-day crash later?
      That’s executive-level decision-making, my friend.

      3. Reframing Like a Pro

      Can’t work full-time? That’s not failure — that’s efficiency.
      Need to cancel plans? That’s strategic rest.
      We’ve had to reframe our entire lives, and that’s actually a top-tier cognitive skill.

      4. Pattern Recognition on Steroids

      Tracking symptoms, testing triggers, noticing connections? We’re basically data analysts in pajamas.
      We notice what works, what doesn’t, and we constantly adapt.


      🔁 Creativity + Resilience = Survival Superpower

      Studies show creativity and resilience feed off each other — they grow together.

      Spoonies don’t just “bounce back.” We reinvent how to exist in a world that wasn’t designed for us.

      That kind of mental flexibility? It makes us great at:

      • Staying calm under chaos
      • Pivoting fast when plans fall apart
      • Finding new solutions when old ones fail
      • Surviving on 2 spoons and a half-decent snack

      Basically, we’ve got the kind of mental agility CEOs put on résumés.


      💼 Real-Life Problem-Solving Nobody Sees

      • Healthcare project management – coordinating meds, specialists, and insurance like a pro.
      • Energy economics – allocating resources like an overworked CFO.
      • Innovation on demand – finding new ways to cook, clean, and live when your body says “nope.”
      • Relationship navigation – balancing guilt, limits, and connection with Jedi-level emotional intelligence.

      We do this every single day — quietly, constantly, expertly.


      💬 Why It Matters

      This isn’t toxic positivity. Chronic illness still sucks.
      But recognizing the skills we’ve built? That’s validation, not sugarcoating.

      ✨ It crushes the “lazy” stereotype — our brains are working overtime.
      🧩 It explains our exhaustion — cognitive heavy-lifting is still lifting.
      💪 It proves we’re developing skills that translate everywhere — creativity, adaptability, resource management, resilience.


      🧃 The Bottom Line

      We’re not lazy.
      We’re not fragile.
      We’re elite-level problem-solvers operating under extreme conditions.

      Our lives are one long masterclass in creativity, strategy, and resilience — and science says that makes us exceptional thinkers.

      So the next time someone implies you’re “just resting,” remember: you’re actually performing high-level cognitive gymnastics 24/7.

      Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to solve the complex equation of whether cereal counts as dinner.
      (Spoiler alert: it does. That’s called strategic resource allocation.) Til next time gang, take care of yourselves, and each other.

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      Taylor Swift Gets Us All: Even the Spoonie Ones

      From survival mode to regret, heartbreak to invisibly raging chaos, Taylor somehow finds the words for it all. These lyrics aren’t just clever turns of phrase — they’re mirrors for anyone struggling to be seen, understood, or simply to make it through another day. So the next time your body, brain, or emotions feel like they’re on fire, remember: Taylor’s got a line for that, and so do you. It’s not about whose pain is “worse” or more legitimate — it’s about being seen, validated, and reminded that even in the middle of your messiest moments, you’re still here, still trying, and still worthy of recognition.

      “Balancin’ on breaking branches.” — Exile
      Tell me you live with chronic illness, ADHD, or bipolar disorder without telling me. That line is the daily tightrope walk — trying to look stable while everything underneath you is creaking. You’re functioning, technically… but one more unexpected email, flare-up, or emotional storm and snap. It’s the exhausted kind of resilience that looks impressive from the outside but feels like survival from the inside.

      “I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t.” — Back to December, Speak Now
      Sometimes life leaves you with regrets that can’t be undone. Chronic illness, mental health episodes, or relationship missteps can haunt you, and all you can do is keep going forward while carrying those lessons with you.


      “They told me all my cages were mental.” — This Is Me Trying, Folklore
      Living with invisible illness or neurodivergence can make people question your experience. Taylor nails the frustration of having your struggles minimized or dismissed, even when you’re doing your absolute best to keep it together.

      “Love slipped beyond your reaches.” — Champagne Problems, Folklore
      For anyone navigating relationships while dealing with chronic pain, mental illness, or emotional turmoil, this lyric speaks to those moments when your best efforts simply aren’t enough — and you feel powerless watching connection slip away.

      “Did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen?” — Right Where You Left Me, Folklore
      That’s literally trauma in a sentence. Perfect for describing being stuck in survival mode long after the danger has passed.

      “When I was drownin’, that’s when I could finally breathe.” — Clean, 1989
      Leave it to Taylor to turn a mental breakdown into poetry. That line perfectly sums up what it feels like when you finally stop pretending you’re fine — when the exhaustion, pain, or chaos finally knocks you flat, and somehow, that’s when you start healing. It’s not weakness; it’s the breath you take after holding it for way too long.


      “You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter.” — Mine
      Generational trauma wrapped in a love song. It’s breaking the patterns you were born into, learning love without fear, and realizing being “the careful daughter” was never the same as being safe.

      “Why’d I have to break what I love so much.” — Afterglow
      For anyone who’s accidentally hurt someone they care about — a child, partner, or even themselves. Chronic illness, emotional overwhelm, or mental health challenges can make us stumble in ways we never intended, and this lyric captures that ache of regret perfectly.

      “The room is on fire, invisible smoke.” — The Archer
      This is what living with chronic illness, PTSD, or anxiety can feel like. Everything in you is alight — panic, pain, exhaustion — but the world sees nothing. Your body aches, your brain races, your emotions combust… and everyone else is just like, “You seem fine.” It’s invisible chaos, and that’s the cruelest part: no one can help fight a fire they can’t see.

      “I guess sometimes we all get some kind of haunted.” — Midnight Rain
      The emotional equivalent of a PTSD flashback, chronic pain flare-up, or neurodivergent meltdown. It’s the moment when your past — trauma, illness, or just life — creeps up on you uninvited. It’s not about reliving the past; it’s about acknowledging that it still lingers.

      “I miss who I used to be.” — Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve
      When life steals pieces of you. Chronic illness, mental health struggles, or trauma can leave you staring at the mirror wondering if you’ll ever recognize yourself again. Taylor nails the quiet heartbreak of missing the “you” that existed before pain, betrayal, or illness started rewriting your story.

      “How much sad did you think I had in me?” — So Long, London
      Nails the emotional extremes of bipolar or just being completely maxed out emotionally. That mix of exhaustion, overwhelm, and “I’m still standing, barely” is instantly relatable to anyone with intense mood swings or chronic emotional strain.

      “I can go anywhere I want — just not home.” — Exile
      The heartbreak of estrangement in one line. You build a life, you heal, but that door you once knew as “home” doesn’t open anymore. It’s grief with no funeral, just echoes.


        From survival mode to heartbreak, estrangement to invisible chaos, Taylor somehow finds the words for it all. Each lyric shows us we’re not alone in our experiences, that even invisible struggles — chronic illness, mental health battles, neurodivergence, estrangement — are valid and worthy of recognition. So the next time your body, brain, or emotions feel like they’re on fire, remember: Taylor’s got a line for that, and so do you. It’s not a contest about whose pain is “worse.” It’s about being seen, being validated, and acknowledging that even in the middle of your messiest moments, you’re still here, still trying, and still worthy of recognition.

        Til next time, gang: take care of yourselves, and of each other.

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        The Body That Never Stands Down: Living With PTSD and Constant Hypervigilance

        PTSD isn’t one-size-fits-all, and it definitely isn’t one-story-fits-all. Some people develop it after combat. Others after a car crash, a hospital stay, a toxic relationship, or years of just surviving things that weren’t survivable.
        The point is — the body doesn’t know why it’s scared. It only knows that something hurt it, and now it refuses to let its guard down again.

        And for a lot of us? That means living in a constant state of alert — hypervigilance.

        When the Body Becomes the Alarm System

        Hypervigilance isn’t about being “paranoid” or “dramatic.” It’s what happens when your brain gets stuck in survival mode. People with PTSD often show increased activation of the amygdala and insula (the brain’s threat detectors), and reduced regulation from the prefrontal cortex (the part that manages logic and fear control). https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9682920

        This creates a brain more prone to automatic threat response and less able to override it.Over time, your body forgets what calm even feels like. It treats peace like a setup.

        You start scanning for the next problem, the next crisis, the next disappointment — because deep down, your body doesn’t believe it’s safe unless it’s braced for impact.

        What That Does to the Mind

        Living that way rewires your thinking.

        • You might second-guess every decision, waiting for the fallout. You’re never wrong if you argue both sides of the problem.
        • You may feel detached or foggy — a kind of emotional autopilot. Fibrofog is bad enough but a bad brain day on top of it means no one is getting anything done today lol.
        • Focus gets harder because your brain is too busy running background security checks on your environment. You spend so much time doing your background checks you miss all the good things.
        • Even joy feels suspicious, like the quiet before a storm. Waiting for the other shoe to drop is a terrible way to go through life because you have no time to dwell on the good.

        Over time, it’s exhausting. Not just “I need a nap” tired, but that bone-deep exhaustion that comes from being on guard 24/7.

        What That Does to the Body

        Hypervigilance isn’t just mental — it’s physical.
        When your nervous system keeps sounding the alarm, your body floods with stress hormones like adrenaline and cortisol. That’s great if you’re outrunning a tiger, not so great if you’re just trying to grocery shop.

        It can lead to:

        • Muscle tension (especially in your neck, shoulders, and jaw)
        • The body doesn’t heal well under constant fight-or-flight — it’s too busy defending.
        • Headaches and chronic pain Studies show that people with hypervigilance scan their surroundings more, fixate more broadly on ambiguous scenes, and show enlarged pupil responses even when no actual threat is present https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4211931
        • Stomach issues or IBS
        • Insomnia or restless sleep In PTSD, sleep architecture often gets altered: more light sleep, fragmented REM (dream) sleep, and difficulty getting into deep, restorative sleep https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9682920
        • Fatigue that doesn’t go away even after rest Also, individuals with PTSD have been shown to keep a higher resting heart rate even while sleeping — signifying that the body never fully “turns off.”
        • Long-term hypervigilance is associated with physical health risks: elevated blood pressure, inflammation, and cardiovascular stress. https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC7263347

        Your body ends up running a marathon it never trained for, with no finish line in sight.

        Important Note

        This is not about comparing kinds of trauma. PTSD is real whether it came from a battlefield, a hospital bed, a car crash, or a childhood that never felt safe. The source may differ — but the physiology of trauma is remarkably similar. If your nervous system is stuck in fight-or-flight, it deserves care, not comparison.

        How to Calm the Body That Won’t Relax

        You can’t logic your way out of hypervigilance — trust me, we’ve all tried. The goal isn’t to “calm down,” it’s to teach your body that safety is possible again.

        Some small but powerful ways to start:

        • Name it when it’s happening. “I’m safe right now, but my body doesn’t believe it.” It sounds simple, but naming it gives your brain a choice other than panic.
        • Release one muscle group. Shoulders, jaw, stomach — anywhere you’re braced. I try and take a shower because my whole body locks up tight.
        • Temperature reset. Cool water on your wrists or neck, or a cold drink, can nudge your nervous system out of fight-or-flight. I’ve started putting a cool cloth on my neck, if that helps some but I’m still plagued with thoughts I need a break from I’ve started sticking my feet in warm water
        • Ground through your senses. Notice what you can see, hear, touch, or smell right now. It pulls your brain back to the present. Name all the things you can.
        • Predictable rituals. Same mug every morning, same playlist before bed — consistency tells your body, “this is safe, this is familiar.”
        • Gentle movement. Rocking, stretching, or walking helps process the adrenaline your body keeps making. (My movement of choice is rocking, often thats how hubby and monkey know when I am stressed a lot of time I dont realize I’m doing it. Sometimes I start to rock but whatever my pain is stops me)

        Healing doesn’t happen in one “aha” moment — it happens in these small, repeated acts of safety. Over time, they teach your body it doesn’t have to live like the worst thing is always about to happen.


        Final Thought

        If you recognize yourself in this — you’re not weak, dramatic, or broken. You’re someone whose body learned to survive. And now you’re teaching it to live. Til next time gang, take care of yourselves, and each other!

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        Two-Week Spoonie Menu: The “We Survived the Plague” Edition Week 25 & 26

        We got hit hard this round — hubby brought home some sort of mutant cold that ran through the house like a toddler through a toy aisle. Everyone took turns coughing, whining, and refusing soup (because of course). The good news: we’re on the mend, and I’m finally feeling ready to cook again… in moderation.

        So, this week’s menu leans heavy on reserves, comfort, and low-effort dinners that still taste like you tried. Three cook days (Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday) with flexible leftovers and built-in sanity savers. Nothing fancy, just survival-mode delicious.

        Week 25

        Sunday – Crockpot Salsa Chicken

        • Cooking Method: Crockpot
        • Ingredients:
          • 2 lbs chicken breasts
          • 1 jar (16 oz) salsa
          • 1 tsp cumin
          • 1 tsp chili powder
          • Salt & pepper to taste
        • Directions:
          1. Place chicken in crockpot, pour salsa over it, sprinkle with spices.
          2. Cook on LOW for 6–7 hours or HIGH for 3–4 hours.
          3. Shred chicken and serve over rice, in tortillas, or with a salad.

        Monday – Reserve Meal

        • Leftover salsa chicken over rice or salad.

        Tuesday – Crockpot Italian Chicken & Veggies

        • Cooking Method: Crockpot
        • Ingredients:
          • 2 lbs chicken thighs
          • 1 cup baby carrots
          • 1 cup potatoes, diced
          • 1 cup zucchini, sliced
          • 1 tsp Italian seasoning
          • Salt & pepper to taste
        • Directions:
          1. Place chicken and veggies in crockpot.
          2. Sprinkle with Italian seasoning and a little salt & pepper.
          3. Cook LOW 6–7 hours or HIGH 3–4 hours.

        Wednesday – Reserve Meal

        • Leftovers from Tuesday; can toss with pasta or eat as-is.

        Thursday – Sheet Pan Sausage & Veggies (not crockpot)

        • Ingredients:
          • 1 lb sausage (turkey or chicken)
          • 1 red bell pepper, sliced
          • 1 zucchini, sliced
          • 1 cup baby potatoes, halved
          • Olive oil, salt, pepper, garlic powder
        • Directions:
          1. Toss all ingredients with olive oil and seasonings.
          2. Roast at 400°F (205°C) for 25–30 minutes, turning once.

        Friday – Reserve Meal

        • Leftovers from Thursday.

        Saturday – Reserve Meal

        • Quick scramble, salad, or grain + protein from reserves.

        Week 26

        Sunday – Salsa Chicken (repeat, make extra for Monday)

        Monday – Reserve Meal

        • Leftover salsa chicken.

        Tuesday – Crockpot Teriyaki Chicken & Rice

        • Ingredients:
          • 2 lbs chicken thighs
          • 1/2 cup teriyaki sauce
          • 1 cup broccoli florets
          • 1 cup carrots, sliced
        • Directions:
          1. Place chicken in crockpot, pour sauce over.
          2. Cook LOW 6–7 hours or HIGH 3–4 hours.
          3. Add veggies in last 30 minutes of cooking.
          4. Serve with rice.

        Wednesday – Reserve Meal

        • Leftovers from Tuesday.

        Thursday – Crockpot Creamy (Light) Chicken & Mushrooms (dairy-light)

        • Ingredients:
          • 2 lbs chicken breasts
          • 1 cup mushrooms, sliced
          • 1/2 cup chicken broth
          • 1 tsp garlic powder
          • Salt & pepper
        • Directions:
          1. Place chicken and mushrooms in crockpot, pour broth over.
          2. Season with garlic powder, salt, pepper.
          3. Cook LOW 6–7 hours or HIGH 3–4 hours.

        Friday – Reserve Meal

        • Leftovers from Thursday.

        Saturday – Reserve Meal

        • Quick grain + protein + veggie, or scrambled eggs + toast + veggies.

        Reserves / Backup Meals Ideas

        These are quick, simple, and interchangeable for non-cooking days:

        • Rotisserie chicken + microwavable veggies
        • Pre-cooked frozen grains (rice, quinoa) + frozen veggies + protein
        • Eggs scrambled or hard-boiled + toast + fruit
        • Canned tuna or chicken salad (without mayo)
        • Salad kits with added beans, eggs, or cooked meat

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        The Unofficial Chronic Illness Starter Pack: 13 Things We All Somehow End Up Owning

        There’s no “welcome packet” when you join the chronic illness club. No orientation video, no handbook, not even a “sorry your body betrayed you” cupcake. But give it a year or two, and like clockwork, you’ll somehow accumulate the exact same stuff as every other chronically ill human alive.

        It doesn’t matter what your diagnosis is — autoimmune, neurological, connective tissue chaos, or “we still don’t know but it’s definitely something.” You’ll still end up with this exact lineup. Consider it the unofficial starter pack for a life you didn’t sign up for.


        1. The Heating Pad That’s Basically a Limb Now

        Not a heating pad. The heating pad. The emotional-support heating device that never leaves your side. The one that smells a little… “well-loved.” The one that goes on vacation with you, because without it, you might as well just stay home and cry.

        Bonus points if you own more than one: couch pad, bed pad, travel pad. If there’s an outlet nearby, there’s probably a heating pad plugged into it.


        2. The Pill Organizer That Screams “Elder Millennial in Crisis”

        Remember when you thought pill organizers were for your grandma? That’s adorable. Now you’ve got the jumbo one with four compartments per day and color-coded sections that could rival a NASA launch sequence.

        You’ve upgraded at least twice. You’ve probably dropped it at least once and watched your entire week scatter across the floor like medical confetti.


        3. The Hydration Graveyard

        “You need to drink more water!” they said. So you bought every water bottle known to humankind. The motivational one with time stamps. The $40 one that promised to change your life. The one with a straw that always smells faintly weird.

        And yet… you’re still dehydrated. But at least your shelf looks like an REI display.


        4. Compression Socks That Deserve Their Own Fashion Line

        When you first bought them, you swore they were temporary. Now you’ve got rainbow stripes, polka dots, and ones that match your pajamas.

        Nothing like someone complimenting your “cute socks” while you’re over here preventing blood from pooling in your legs like a human Capri Sun.


        5. Meds You’re 70% Sure You Still Need

        Your medicine cabinet looks like a CVS threw up. Some prescriptions you take daily, some “just in case,” and others that you can’t remember why you still have but you’re too scared to stop taking.

        At least once a week you’re googling, “can I take this one with food or nah?”


        6. The Sacred Comfort Outfit

        Elastic waistband. Zero zippers. Fabric so soft it might disintegrate soon but you’ll die before you part with it.

        You own duplicates because when you find something that doesn’t make your body angry, you commit.


        7. The Ice Pack Army

        The freezer is 80% ice packs and 20% actual food. There are gel ones, flexible ones, and the infamous bag of peas that’s been there since the Obama administration.

        Visitors open your freezer and immediately regret asking questions.


        8. Pillows. So Many Pillows.

        You’ve got regular pillows, wedge pillows, knee pillows, body pillows, and that expensive orthopedic one you swear doesn’t help but you’re too stubborn to admit it.

        Your bed looks like a cloud exploded. Your couch looks like a pillow fort designed by an overachiever.


        9. Your Personal Medical Archive

        You could open a small clinic with your paperwork. Test results, specialist notes, insurance denials, and that one referral you might need someday.

        Because if you don’t keep copies, you’ll end up explaining your entire medical history from scratch at every appointment anyway.


        10. The Blanket Multiverse

        Weighted blanket. Heated blanket. Soft blanket. “Don’t touch me” blanket. “Only this texture doesn’t make me rage” blanket.

        You’ve reached a point where you can’t sit anywhere without instinctively grabbing one. It’s fine. It’s cozy. You’ve accepted it.


        11. Snacks on Standby

        Every bag, drawer, and vehicle has a snack stash. Protein bars, nuts, crackers, and that one emergency granola bar that’s probably older than your pet but still good in a pinch.

        Low blood sugar waits for no one.


        12. The Endless Notebook Collection

        Symptom logs, med trackers, food diaries, mood charts, appointment notes. Every notebook started with good intentions and ended three pages in.

        You’ve also tried every app known to mankind, but somehow keep coming back to paper and pen.


        13. A Dark, Sparkly Sense of Humor

        You can’t buy this one, but it’s essential. If you can’t laugh at your heating pad dependency and your pharmacy-sized pill case, you’ll lose your mind.

        Because crying hurts your head, and honestly, we’re low on spoons for that today.


        The Unspoken Truth

        If you’re reading this while sitting on your heating pad, wrapped in a blanket, surrounded by snacks and water bottles you forgot to refill — congrats, you’re one of us now.

        The chronic illness starter pack isn’t sold anywhere. You build it piece by piece, fueled by trial, error, and desperate 2 a.m. Amazon searches.

        We didn’t choose this starter pack. But we’re making it work — one heating pad session, one sarcastic laugh, one survival day at a time. Til next time gang, take care of yourselves, and each other!

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        When You Can’t Tell If It’s a Flare or a Flashback (And Why That’s Terrifying)

        Your heart’s doing the cha-cha at 130 beats per minute. Your chest tightens. The world tilts. Your hands shake. Your brain starts whispering, “Hey, are we dying or just freaking out again?”

        Is it POTS? A panic attack? A flashback to that one time your body really did betray you?
        You’ve got about thirty seconds to figure it out before the anxiety of not knowing makes everything worse.

        Welcome to the impossible diagnostic puzzle that is living with chronic illness and PTSD from medical trauma.


        When Your Body Is Both the Scene of the Crime and the Witness

        People with chronic illnesses are statistically more likely to develop PTSD-like symptoms—but the kicker is, it’s not from a one-time event. It’s because your body is an ongoing threat to your own sense of safety.

        Unlike classic PTSD, where the trauma is technically in the past, medical PTSD means the trauma could literally happen again.
        When you live with something like POTS, EDS, or MCAS, your body is both the suspect and the alarm system. The hypervigilance isn’t paranoia—it’s pattern recognition. You’ve learned that symptoms can mean something is seriously wrong.

        But here’s the nightmare twist: those same symptoms—heart racing, shaking, dizziness—are also identical to a panic attack.


        The Overlap That Makes You Want to Scream Into a Pillow

        Let’s play a fun game called “Spot the Difference” between POTS and panic attacks:

        POTS Symptoms:

        • Rapid heart rate (120+ bpm)
        • Dizziness or lightheadedness
        • Shortness of breath
        • Chest tightness
        • Trembling, sweating, nausea
        • Feeling like you might pass out

        Panic Attack Symptoms:

        • Rapid heart rate
        • Dizziness or lightheadedness
        • Shortness of breath
        • Chest tightness
        • Trembling, sweating, nausea
        • Feeling like you might pass out

        Yeah. Exactly the same.

        So you sit there, pulse pounding, trying to decide if you need electrolytes or grounding exercises. And the longer you try to figure it out, the more anxious you get. Which—you guessed it—makes your heart race even more.

        Congratulations, you’ve just triggered both conditions at once.


        The “Is It My Body or My Brain?” Spiral

        1. Heart rate spikes.
        2. You think, “Is this POTS or panic?”
        3. The uncertainty feeds the anxiety.
        4. Anxiety makes your heart rate climb higher.
        5. PTSD brain jumps in like, “Hey, remember the last time this happened?”
        6. Your body floods with stress hormones.
        7. Symptoms worsen, clarity vanishes, and you’re stuck in a full-body loop of chaos.

        Sometimes grounding doesn’t work. Sometimes standing makes it worse. Sometimes everything makes it worse. The mental gymnastics of self-triage would exhaust an Olympic athlete, and that’s before you even factor in the fatigue that both conditions bring.


        When Hypervigilance Isn’t a “Coping Issue”

        In classic PTSD, hypervigilance—constantly scanning for danger—is something therapy tries to reduce.
        But when you live with a chronic condition that can cause fainting, cardiac issues, or anaphylaxis, that vigilance might literally save your life.

        So how do you tell your brain to “calm down, you’re safe” when sometimes… you actually aren’t?

        This is the impossible bind of trauma plus illness:
        PTSD therapy says, stop monitoring every sensation.
        Your medical team says, monitor every sensation.
        Neither is wrong. Neither fully works.


        The Medical Gaslighting Cherry on Top

        And just to make it more fun: when you do seek help, you get hit with the “it’s just anxiety” script.

        Even though POTS isn’t caused by anxiety, and even though research shows anxiety rates are about the same as the general population, you’ll still have doctors waving off your physical symptoms because your chart says PTSD.

        You start to lose faith in professionals. You stop asking for help. You learn to rely only on yourself for triage—because nobody else seems capable of telling the difference either.

        Which means you’re back to square one, again, sitting in the impossible space of trying to figure it out alone.


        The Treatment Contradiction

        PTSD therapy often involves exposure work—facing the thing that scares you until your brain chills out about it.
        Except in this case, the “thing that scares you” is your own body.

        You can’t just take a break from having a body. You can’t “gradually reintroduce” the experience of dizziness or tachycardia when those things are daily realities that might require medical intervention.

        Worse, some PTSD therapies intentionally raise your heart rate to help you practice staying calm through physical sensations. That’s great… unless you have POTS, where that heart rate spike might actually make you faint.

        So you end up in a no-win situation where treating one condition can trigger the other.


        What Actually Helps (Sometimes)

        There’s no perfect fix here. But there are ways to soften the edges:

        💡 Look for patterns, not moments. Track triggers over time. Are symptoms linked to posture, temperature, dehydration, or specific memories? Zooming out can help reduce panic in the moment.

        💡 Build a “both/and” plan. Sit down? Yes (helps POTS). Ground yourself? Yes (helps panic). You don’t have to guess which one it is to respond with compassion instead of chaos.

        💡 Find trauma-informed doctors. You need providers who understand that your nervous system and your medical symptoms aren’t separate universes.

        💡 Accept uncertainty. Sometimes you just won’t know—and that’s not failure. That’s reality.

        💡 Validate yourself. You’re not dramatic. You’re not broken. You’re reacting appropriately to a wildly confusing body situation that most people can’t imagine.


        The Unspoken Truth

        Living with medical PTSD and chronic illness means constantly trying to interpret a body that lies to you and tells the truth at the same time.

        It means your hypervigilance is both too much and not enough.
        It means your body is both the warning sign and the danger.

        You’re not failing to cope—you’re surviving something that isn’t designed to make sense.

        And honestly? That’s nothing short of heroic.

        Til next time, gang, take care of yourselves, and each other!


        🧠 Research Toolbox

        • American Psychological Association. Medical trauma and PTSD in patients with chronic illness (2020).
        • Raj, S. R. (2022). Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS): Pathophysiology, Diagnosis, and Management. Cleveland Clinic Journal of Medicine.
        • Löwe, B. et al. (2021). Trauma, PTSD, and chronic illn